How I discovered the pleasure for BDSM

Well it was like 2 years ago , I used to work on a website but as a non adult model ( non adult models /performers are not allowed to get naked ) usually some girls broke the rules and the site close their eyes because of the money, happens to all sites I guess but when I’m new I try to stick by the rules, anyways first day there and a guy comes in private chat and ask me if I am willing to do a roleplay show. Well I explained that in my category is not allowed to be naked or tease etc  and I was disappointed that my first private will end so fast. But guess what? He tells me that he has no intentions in seeing me naked and his way of playing is different. I listened carefully to what he was saying, I was :O about his tools and I had no Idea how could I use them but I said yes I agree if he is willing to collaborate into helping me. We started and I remembered I’ve seen a movie a while ago where the main lead was a real life mistress and she was ordering to her slaves to kneel . In the moment I told him in your knees and seen him kneeling in front of me I had a strange overwhelming feeling, I felt powerful and I felt that he is my toy. He showed me a rope and some clamps ( which I knew there are used for nipples, seen some other girls use it so I assumed for me is same use) a very tin metal stick and paddle. I had no idea what should I tell him to do with the rope but he helped the way and said ” Mistress may I tie my balls for  you? ” I was a bit shocked but I told him ” Yes  you may” next he asked if he can use his clamps and I allowed him but I sort of gave him the wrong order saying he should use them for his nipples, but then he suggest that having them on his balls would be more painful. We were on the good track but I was thinking what the hell is he gonna do with that metal stick, but I did not give up and wanted to find all the use for it and how far he will go, I also felt like this is very interesting and I should know more. So I asked him what will he do with that metal stick to pleasure me ( to be honest I was thinking he will use it in his ass or something like that  but I suggested so that should look like I really have no idea) and he replay ” I will fuck my peehole for  you mistress” and I was like, wait what? what’s a peehole lol ( my english is not the best since is not my main language so I didn’t know some terms). So all I could say was ” In your peehole?” and he guessed I didn’t know what is it so he showed me , I got scared, I was wondering if is not dangerous? maybe is too painful? why would he do something like that? and suddenly had this idea ” yes you may but first put that metal stick into alcohol ” I was afraid he might get sick or some complications I didn’t really think  that alcohol would bring him more pain 😀 and he did, my face looked like I was watching a horror movie but I couldn’t help but look, shortly after I ordered him to stop and let the metal stick inside while he slap his cock with the wood spoon. After a while I ordered him to cum but with the metal stick in, I did not know is harder or more painful, I was just curious about something else, I was wondering if he can cum with that in and he did . He said thank you mistress and asked for permission to get the rope clamps and metal stick off, I allowed him to, he wished me a good night and left. But he did not know he left me with 100 questions and with the desire of knowing and wanting more . That was the day I decided I need to know more about this and maybe experience more. Now I know what he wanted, he wanted CBT and now I am more cruel when comes to it, is one of my favorite, maybe because it was my first.